It's been really hard among all this crazy job searching to remember the purpose of it all. It's hard not to get sucked into the "american dream" way of thinking and start to freak out about well if i don't have a job by now, it's going to be that much harder to get one, and then I won't be able to start thinking about grad school until 2 years after getting said job, which means i wont be able to really advance in my career until this point and blah blah blah. Which is scary to me because when I was in nursing school I rarely thought about any of that. Like ever. It was always being able to serve these patients in need and loving them was my focus. That's what made me want to keep going in nursing. And the longer I have been out makes it that much harder to remember that.
It's also been hard not to take all this rejection personally. I have to keep reminding myself that it is not necessarily me, it's the current job market that is making it SO difficult to nail down a job. Nursing has always been competitive, but now it seems like here is a huge pool of options for hospitals to choose from and they can be so nit picky about what they want or don't want that you as an applicant can't really see. Having all the requirements is no longer helpful. Even having more than that doesn't work. You need that inside connection to get you that job.
I feel that these are both things that the enemy is trying to plant in my head and trying to make me focus on. It is him that makes me doubt myself and skills and then when that happens, that leads to me thinking about how my nursing career will never be what it is supposed to. When I get these thoughts I have to immediately start praying and remember the passion that the Lord gave me for nursing. He has equipped me with what is needed for His plan and purpose. Or if I'm still missing stuff, He will teach/show me the rest of what I may need. He has placed me on this journey and as long as I stay with Him through it, it will work out for His glory. I know that I love being able to help people whether they be in a hospital, a home, a doctors office, or a clinic in some other country. Being able to show those people the love that God shows me everyday is one of the many reasons I love nursing and I believe the purpose for Him placing me in this field.
A huge help during this time has been the band All Sons and Daughters. The lyrics they put in their songs are so simple and so perfect for what I am feeling during this season. I have put the lyrics for their song "Alive" because it has been one of my favorites and a definite go to for me. If haven't already heard their music I really encourage you guys give them a listen. :)
It's also been hard not to take all this rejection personally. I have to keep reminding myself that it is not necessarily me, it's the current job market that is making it SO difficult to nail down a job. Nursing has always been competitive, but now it seems like here is a huge pool of options for hospitals to choose from and they can be so nit picky about what they want or don't want that you as an applicant can't really see. Having all the requirements is no longer helpful. Even having more than that doesn't work. You need that inside connection to get you that job.
I feel that these are both things that the enemy is trying to plant in my head and trying to make me focus on. It is him that makes me doubt myself and skills and then when that happens, that leads to me thinking about how my nursing career will never be what it is supposed to. When I get these thoughts I have to immediately start praying and remember the passion that the Lord gave me for nursing. He has equipped me with what is needed for His plan and purpose. Or if I'm still missing stuff, He will teach/show me the rest of what I may need. He has placed me on this journey and as long as I stay with Him through it, it will work out for His glory. I know that I love being able to help people whether they be in a hospital, a home, a doctors office, or a clinic in some other country. Being able to show those people the love that God shows me everyday is one of the many reasons I love nursing and I believe the purpose for Him placing me in this field.
A huge help during this time has been the band All Sons and Daughters. The lyrics they put in their songs are so simple and so perfect for what I am feeling during this season. I have put the lyrics for their song "Alive" because it has been one of my favorites and a definite go to for me. If haven't already heard their music I really encourage you guys give them a listen. :)
This is a call to all the dead and disappointed
The ones who feel like they are done
This is a word to all the ones who feel forgotten
But you are not
Oh you are not
We’re alive, alive, alive we’re singing
We’re alive, alive, alive and we’re shaken
We’re alive, alive, alive, alive in You
We are soaked in all the grace that we’ve been given
Unchained from all that we have done
Your mercy’s rising like the sun on the horizon
We’re coming home
We’re alive, alive, alive we’re singing
We’re alive, alive, alive and we’re shaken
We’re alive, alive, alive, alive in You
The ones who feel like they are done
This is a word to all the ones who feel forgotten
But you are not
Oh you are not
We’re alive, alive, alive we’re singing
We’re alive, alive, alive and we’re shaken
We’re alive, alive, alive, alive in You
We are soaked in all the grace that we’ve been given
Unchained from all that we have done
Your mercy’s rising like the sun on the horizon
We’re coming home
We’re alive, alive, alive we’re singing
We’re alive, alive, alive and we’re shaken
We’re alive, alive, alive, alive in You
Amen.
