greener on the other side

Hey y’all! This is my first official post, deciding if I should finally join this world of blogging, I mean I read enough of them so why not write one! :) Part of why I am just now really exploring this is because I feel I have not had time in last 3 years. I am a recent graduate of a nursing school in Southern California (ya APU, go cougs!!), but unfortunately there is just not a lot of money to hire new graduate nurses right now in California. Therefore I am still unemployed, moved back in with the family, and just living the average post grad life!!

It has been quite the adjustment. I mean my average week for the past few years has been waking up at some ungodly hour (4-5 am), going to an 8-12 hour clinical shift usually twice a week. Then on the other two days I would attend multiple 3-4 hour lectures so I could learn the stuff I was supposed to apply to clinicals. And finally I would use my last three days to fit in 16-20 hours of work, and of course studying was at any break point I had. I remember there were multiple times where I would have stop and pray for God to let it slow down because it was to much. I learned to take advantage of any free time I would get, when I got called of work, a class cancelled, even being stuck in traffic (I know kinda pathetic) but any break I had to take advantage of. Little did I know what He had in store for me post grad.

I feel like this season is finally the answer to my prayers. I mean when I was praying them, this is not what I thought of, but His plans and mine do not always align perfectly :). I was envisioning like a week of nothing to do, just sleeping, reading, vegging out pretty much, didn’t think it would be months later still happening. I am trying to take a new look upon my situation. I have days free for the first time I can remember in a long time. I have been able to cross of f some things from my bucket list, such as finishing the Harry Potter series, becoming more of a baker, finally putting those painting inspirations onto canvas, and who knows blogging may be next! :) This also means I have time to really dive into time with Him, reading scripture, devotionals, journals, etc. This also means that I can no longer use the excuse of being tired or not having enough time to skimp on my Jesus time.

But anyway the point of this (which I have used probably WAY too many words to get to) is that in the beginning of this time I was so anxious to get back in the hospital, working 12 hour shifts and wanting to be the busy busybody like before, even though during that time I was praying so much for a slow season, which I where I am now. It is funny how the human instinct is to want what you don’t or no longer have. The things that we are blessed with never seem good enough compared to what other people have. Right now I am trying to stay content in my pasture, the place that the Lord has placed me. Even though another one might look greener to me, God has me here for a reason and I need to remember and rejoice in that.